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Important Note

Note (especially for Secret Passion Readers):

For a very personal reason, I have not been able to update in quite a while... I wish it was a nice, happy reason that keeps me away, but it's something quite devastating and deeply personal. I wish I could say more... but suffice to say, for a girl who likes to write only happily-ever-afters, dealing with real-life tragedy is never easy.
Writing has always been my escape and that somehow, what I've written has struck a chord with so many of you means a great deal. Thank you for that. Thank you to all those who took a chance not only on my fanfics, but Heartless, Bow-tied, Leather-strapped etc. as well.
I logged back in here after a really long time hoping reading some comments would lift my mood up as it usually does and partly, that worked. I haven't gotten through them all but a couple made an impression. First, shout out to Judy for your comments on Baby, Hold On. It's always nice to read such positivity and feedback--especially on a completed fanfic. As every fanfic writer knows, finished fics tend to not be appreciated once the epilogue is posted and readers move on.
The second comment I happened to read was about Secret Passion, which accused the fic of basically being toxic, particularly the beginning interactions of Arnav and Khushi. I have multiple times said that this story is mature and triggering. It is not for everyone. I do not condone ASR's behavior in those initial chapters. Out of all my fics, SP is the one that most mirrors the show and that's because the idea was to create a mature version of the show. As anyone who watched the show knows, like many soaps out there, the whole premise of IPKKND was based on a toxic, skewed foundation. It was an imperfect show with problematic scenes and premises (particularly ASR's heavy handed ways).
I was much younger when I fell in love with it, but still old enough to realize that there is no way I would tolerate that behavior in real life. But then why did I love the show so much? Why did I watch it and rewatch it? Why did I search out fanfics for it and when not happy with that, wrote some of my own? I went through a long period of questioning my love for this show--seriously. I guilt-tripped myself over it many times, so to the anonymous commentator, you haven't said anything I haven't thought about before.
Eventually, I made a choice for myself that I wasn't going to psychoanalyze my love for a fictional show, that as a woman--hell, as a human being--I had a right to watch, read and write whatever I liked. I did not need to explain my choices to anyone. That's what I assumed Secret Passion's readers took away as well--that this is a fictional story meant to be a mature version of a fictional show. I tried  to make very clear that though Khushi initially "hates" ASR, she is helluva attracted to him, she's on that fine line between love and hate and every time, she chooses him.
Is it a story without flaws? No, absolutely not, just like the show, just like a lot of erotica and dark romance books out there, it is far from perfect. Though I stand by that no one should be censored for their love of any show, book or movie, comments like the one I received, filled with judgement and accusations against me, make me question why the hell I waste my time with something controversial like Secret Passion. My other IPPKND fics never receive this type of vitriol, probably because they have nothing much to do with the show other than the characters.
I would love to hear what other readers of SP have to say. I began writing Secret Passion years ago and over time, it matured along with me, moving away from the actual show. Yet, I have no problem taking it all down. With one click.
This post isn't due to just this anonymous comment, but something that I have to deal with every couple of months with this story. Some read episode 1 and make a judgment on me and the story, others don't even read all of episode 1. I'm not sure why I bother honestly. It's not okay to make judgements on people without knowing them. It's not okay to shame someone for what they like to read or write. It's not progressive at all but rather backwards. It's quite simple, if you don't like it, don't read it. I don't think Secret Passion or IPPKND is harming anyone, but if I continue to be harassed, I will take it down.
I logged in here to find some inspiration to write and coincidentally, wrap up Secret Passion's season finale, but I didn't find it. Not tonight.
So to update:
Secret Passion -- no idea what to do with it honestly. Take it down or not?
Desert Heat -- hopefully next month it will be available. The full ebook and the final arshi chapters.
Omega -- cancelled

--Tina

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  1. i am so sorry to hear this Di. Plz dont take down Secret Passion. Look at books like Twist Me, 50 Shades, Secret Passion is no where near that type. I though tyou made very clear Khushi wants Arnav and their love is so so beautiful in Secret Passion Di. plz keep writing. love u.

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  2. hello... i am not a new reader of you fanfics...but an old reader but never commented. ..i always loved your secret passion story.. and your passionate writing about that story.. we all have our fantasy ..and when we wrote something we gave our fantasy to that writings... don't take down that story....plz consider my words .. i loved your every story.. i just say that your writing is my inspiration.. thank you

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    1. It's nice to hear from you. Thank you for your kind words! Means a lot.

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  3. hey tina!!
    i just read ur note and i m so sorry for all that uh have to face
    those people who harassed uh are sick!!!
    so for them plz dont let ur honest readers n uh suffer
    honestly i only read arhi fanfics in ur blog n i dont know how many times i have read sp again n again!!
    plz dont take it down really i checked everyday whether uh have posted any sp update..
    so plzzzzzzzzzzzzz its a hearty request post sp next episode n never take it down!!!!!!
    n plzzz also start writing omega...
    we love uh n hopefully uh will consider our request ......:)

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  4. Hi Tina,

    I am not a new reader of yours but I don't usually comment on your blog... I generally drop my comments on India Forums. Anyways, please don't take 'Secret Passion' down down just because of few people who just can't seem to stop giving their unwanted opinions. You always said that this was a dark theme story and if they still don't heed the warnings then you should too ignore them... not everyone appreciate such bold themes.

    I love your 'Secret Passion' and how you build the plot so much so I got my boyfriend read this story and after that he is totally hooked up with your stories. So please don't get upset over few unwanted bashers and focus on all the people who love your story... given so much love to it and request as a fan of yours please don't take the story down and finish it because we don't want this lovely story to be left unfinished or taken down because of few villainous people.


    Hope you consider and whatever problem has ypu depressed is over soon.



    With love,
    Kavya

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    1. That is so nice to hear that both you and your boyfriend are enjoying this story. your words mean a great deal to me hun.

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  5. hi i am a reader of your secret passion, which gives dark mature subject and love exist between two people and their love is very beautiful, please do not stop writing.kindly update the chapters of Sp. please do not take it down.
    we love your writing. kindly consider this request.

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    1. Thank you so much for the kind words, I will of course consider your request. I just got very upset with everything going on.

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  6. Love your stories, you are a brilliant writer. Please don't take down SP as love the story.

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    1. Thanks for the constant support hun. Means a lot!

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  7. Hi tina,

    Waited for a long time for the finale episode of SP for this season. But never expected to get a shocking note.
    Please its a humble request.... do continue your story for the readers who enjoy every bit of SP....who wait patiently for thy story to be updated... just atleast for their sake plz do continue..... and don't take down any of your ippknd stories from your blog. Cause i keep reading them often and there are many who read it too and enjoy. So please do consider our request .

    Can understand your pain and the situation....but just coz of few person and their silly words....why do you want to stop writing...there are many who love you and the wonderful stories you gave us so please for their sake change your decision and continue to write . You started this journey of writing with all your love and passion. So why do you want to quit for some lousy people who don't value it.

    Plz think about it and give us readers a good news. Will be waiting eagerly.
    Thankyou
    Shalomgrace

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    1. Thank you for all your kind words hun, you make great points. I think I just got overwhelmed yesterday with everything and reacted strongly. I will of course keep what you said here in mind.

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  8. Please please do not remove it. It's the very first fanfiction I read of yours. I fell in love with your writing. I found it different and very much interesting. After the show ended I still checked your blogs multiple times in a day. Why so? Because secret passion made me fell in love with Arnav and khush.I think there are some people who don't have the courage to read it. They criticise you, talk about your writing .Because they can't think of anything this much passionate. You are extremely talented. Pls don't waste your energy on those people. We are here, your loyal readers. I love your every story. But mostly secret passion because it's mature and different. Please consider me. I beg you pls post the episode finale of secret passion and continue the story. We are here always for you. Write it as you wish. You've are gonna rock again. Take care and all the best.

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    1. Aww it's so nice to know Secret Passion continues to have readers like you. It's been a long journey and I really want to take it to where I've always seen it going. Thanks for the kind words hun.

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  9. Hey dear,
    Just read ur note and I am astound to know that u r even thinking to remove Ur precious work just because of some morons' stereotype thinking.
    All haters and jerks i have one message for you " her work is her work none of Ur work so why don't u mind Ur work".
    Tina dear, SP content is exactly what is should have been. There are times when we love and hate same person at same time. Khushi do have choices by not agreeing to arnav's conditions or Arnav could have been force himself on her then what would you guys would have said. Tina didn't write anything which is against any women dignity. Khushi was equally willing in each love making. But haters would know this thing if they read the story. I suggest haters to read khushi's pov in 6-7 chapter.
    Tina I request you to not to remove Ur work.

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    1. I love your message! Thank you for the support. I thought I made it abundantly clear that Khushi is crazy about Arnav in SP, that every time she chooses to be with him and that instead of hating him, she hates how much she wants him but it's beyond her control, her heart is his ;)

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  10. OMG, I am sad to hear somebody posting such hateful comment on your SP chapter..... I dont understand the craze and love I have for IPK and Arshi ..........so just like you, even though some part of IPK was not right, esp if its Arnav, still we somehow overlooked it, just cause its Arnav-Khushi....

    as for SP, I say, its your story and your right to write it the way you want... this is called creativity and it doesnt need societal approval...... IF people cannot digest it, they should ignore the story, but they have no right to push you to not write or write as per their likes.......... if they want the story a certain way, then they should take the pain to write one themselves....

    Also its my request that you don't pay heed to such negative commenters, whose main aim might be to make you stop writing and changing the storyline..... Please think of us who love the story and want to see you write more such different and unique stories......

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    1. I wish everyone understood what you wrote here. It takes a lot of time and energy to write and I won't be dictated to. I'm going to write what I want. :) I will of course keep readers like you in mind, I just got overwhelmed yesterday with everything.

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  11. Love all your stories. Though SP is a mature one, it is different and unique from all the other ones of your stories. Not all the stories can be the same. It shows how Khushi accepts Arnav even with his flaws wholeheartedly and stands by him under all circumstances. It is ARSHI against the world who wanted to separate them and how these two overcome all the hurdles thrown at them by staying together. I really love to read and used to wait for the new updates from you. Please don't get disheartened just because some can't see it as fictional one and read it with open mind which shows how immature they are. Take your time and give us update when you feel like but please don't take it down.

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    1. Thanks for your kind words. Yes, that's exactly it, SP is fictional and that's it. It's hard not to be disheartened sometimes but I'm trying.

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  12. Its sad to see such note from you. .. Even after all these years..... Whats the problem with these people...can't they get the simple concept...read it if u like it else ignore it..
    Grow up people.
    For me SP is as special as your other stories like MG BHO DH ...maybe SP a tad bit more...
    Personally i wouldn't like it if you take down the stories..but i understand how frustrating it must be for you writers to read all those crap comments..
    I bet they are the ones who post nasty comments and still go back desperately to read the story....seriously why even take the trouble of reading the next update when you didn't like the first one..

    All I can say is good luck in watever u do and hope you overcome all your problems too:-)).. Be ☺.. Its wat that matters in the end...

    Anamika..

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words hun. I think I just got overwhelmed yesterday and that comment with its accusations was the last straw. I really don't understand why such people don't follow your advice and stop reading and coming to this site. Like you said, it's simple, don't like it, don't read it :)

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  13. So happy to see your msg at the same time sad to know abt the things you went through..I really dnt knw why this is happening with you again n again:/ .I can only pray n wish that let Almighty give you the strength to face every challenge in life . Don't even think abt taking down your stories(especially SP) and don't let some pathetic reader's opinion to change your mind.

    Badly looking frwd to your nxt msg .[which I'm sure is gng to be a SLAP for the so-called reader:) ]
    Waiting >> SP

    Stay blessed n happy:)

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    1. Thank you hun for such a sweet message. Huge hug to you!

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  14. Hello Tina I am a reader of your's from long time.. Love each and every story of yours.. SP is very close to our hearts and have read it with the same passion with which you have written it.. Don't think that first timer's comments can change anything for you.. We have been here with you from long.. hope our comments are of some value.. Would love to read next part of SP and have been always waiting for DH.. Tina thanks for note but don't think after so many years you need to give such people any ear.. Rest is your wish.. Best wishes and pray for you good will.. God bless.. Happy Diwali..

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    1. Yes, I know readers like you have stayed with me right from the start and encouraged me all the way. It means so much to me! Happy Diwali to you as well!

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  15. Hi Tina, so sorry to hear this.. hope you feel better soon.
    About SP .. you always said it was a dark ff ..i dont understand why people have to come and c=berate the writers... if you dont like it dont read it... no one is forcing you to read it. All you stories are very close to my heart.
    I hope you continue with SP... i would love to be able to see it till the end. Hope my comment will be able to at least contribute to lift up your spirit.
    Take Care... and no pressure on updating soon! take your time and come back with a good news :)
    Happy Diwali in advance! May this Diwali bring all the peace and good luck to you!!

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    1. Thank you for your message and good wishes. Happy Diwali to you as well <3 I wish such people would listen to your advice and not bother with a story that is clearly not for them. If only..

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    2. True, If only...
      Anyways thanks for not taking it down and continuing with the story :)

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  16. Hi Tina, I used to read your stories and recently I've kind of lost interest in arshi ff's... I used to love Secret passion and now I don't follow it as much because of the darker side of it - I was kind of waiting for the happy ending so that I could read it at once. I'm not saying this to judge you or tell you what you're writing is wrong - it's simply my preference, that's all. I'm a person who likes my happy stories.

    However my reason for commenting today is because of your annoyance with negative comments. I just want to say that when you wrote this story, I'm sure you knew the consequences of it. I'm sure you knew that many people wouldn't like it or accept it. But of course there are several people out there like myself who did/do like the story. I'm just trying to say that you knew the consequences of writing this story and it's best if you just learn to deal with it - i.e. ignore the bad comments.

    It's the same way life works - some people like you, some don't. Some people are genuine with you, some speak behind your back. Some people understand you, some don't. I'm not saying those people are right - of course it's not right for people to just judge you like that. But if this happened to you in the real world, which I'm sure has happened several times (we all have experiences of that) I'm sure you would simply ignore the latter - same thing here. I know it's easier said than done, but it's the way life is and I hope you can get yourself to see this at some point. Please don't stop writing or feel demotivated because some people don't like your work - just remember there are several others who love it.

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    1. I have no problem with negative comments. By now, I'm used to getting one every now and then and sometimes it's constructive and other times, it's downright nasty, but with the internet being as it is and me allowing anonymous comments on this blog, it's nothing I don't expect. But this comment in particular went beyond not liking a story or even hating it, it attacked me and accused me of promoting things I'm vehemently against. It struck a nerve because this person has no idea of the things I've faced in my own life and I reacted as strongly as I did. Hope that makes sense.

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  17. I adore you and your writing and so do so many others. I'm sure it's not easy to be immune to such comments that mischaracterize you and your work, but I hope you keep in mind the many more readers who love Secret Passion like me. Might I suggest not allowing anonymous posts? Just a thought. And for someone to find a problem with Secret Passion what about books like captive in the dark series or all those bought by the billionaire books? Why are they targeting you and a fanfiction? I hope such people learn that you owe none of us anything. You don't need to update and work so hard. But you have been for years for readers like us. I'm so grateful to you TIna. Happy Diwali to you and your family. lots of love, Fatima

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    1. thank you hun for the support and encouragement and Diwali wishes. You make excellent points! Hugs!

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  18. Again same thing is happening with my most fav story SP, i have loved it with all my heart since the time i started reading it...
    I don't understand what is the problem with these bashers, but i just wanted to tell you that i have been waiting for it's finale like always..
    But as always final decision is always yours...

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    1. I know you've followed SP right from the start, Amina :) I'll be posting soon on my decision.

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  19. Hi Tina,

    Please do NOT take down Secret Passion under any cost! It's a fine piece of work and honestly that's an understatement. It's far more than that. Don't ever allow comments like this to get under your skin, because honestly it's not worth it. The time that you spent writing that fanfiction and creating it, is worth far more than anything else. You have so much talent and so much potential, don't let it go to waste just because of a measly comment. Have you seen Sanju? Kuch toh log kahengay, logon ka kaam hai kehna (People are going to say something because that is there job). But you should focus on YOU! Do what makes you happy and don't give a damn about it, because we all love you and Secret Passion dammit! Rabba ve must continue on! I look forward to the Secret Passion Finale and more fanfictions, so go get em girl or as Khushi would say it "Jai Devi Maiyya Ki."

    Love you Tina!! :)))

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    1. You are the sweetest hun *hugs* Yes, I've seen Sanju and that song is apt :) I usually ignore such comments but I felt personally attached this point. I've decided to continue SP however :)

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    2. Aww thanks girl! Yup, that song is so on point. No worries, if you ever need to talk, I'm hear for ya! And yayy, I'm glad to hear that. I'm super eager to read the next episode. It's time to kill it Tina! Rabba ve...Xoxoxo! :))

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  20. Hi Tina read ur note im shocked and speechless. Ur work is only urs it's ur hardwork and creativity who the hell r these people to complain about it in simple language it's a story if u don't like don't read Tina is not giving u invitations. Ur reading her story and bashing her to demoralize her..because sp is ur star story. I personally guess these r any fellow writers they r jealous of ur popularity so they r finding faults as a reader I'm eagerly waiting to ur updates. Don't take them to ur heart go on let people bash them publish their comments in bold letters so we can read and reply them. Please continue sp that

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    1. Thank you hun for the support! Means a lot to me. Exactly, I feel like I write and spend so much of my free time on these stories and to get attacked personally in return like in this case, was too much. I will however be continuing SP, no worries <3

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  21. I am silent reader for a long time , I know how important for a writer to keep on encouraging because it almost take 2 hr to 1 paragraph if not in mood n meanwho6 these comments demotive them but please see positive side of it!how many fans you have n please kéep on writingl...ho Ho everything goes well!
    Believe it or not but I do check every single day about update :)

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  22. Hi Tina,

    Hope you're well. Reading your note today, I have to say that I was feeling pissed off to those 'haters' giving negative comments about SP. I guess main reason for those SP haters are plain jealousy and insecurity. I, for one, think it's one of the very best Arshi fics I've ever read...so please, don't take it down. It would hurt so much for your readers that love reading SP. We have your back and will be supporting against those who don't like SP; you are the writer of SP and you have the right to write how the story goes and how it will end. It's an amazing story and there are those who really love it. For those negative comments and bashings, don't let them get to you and you can just delete them, Tina. You can don't need this kind of people as your readers and you don't owe them anything...not even an explanation.

    And for those SP haters, if you don't like the story and how it's written, just stop reading them (can't be that difficult, isn't it?)... or take a hike.

    Tina, I love all your stories and I enjoyed reading each one of them...don't forget that you still have the support of many of us, your faithful readers. I look forward to reading the next update of SP. Love & hugs from Holland <3 <3 <3

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  23. Hey Tina I am so glad to hear something from you. Sorry about the things that are bothering you. Please don't be bothered about some readers who actually don't understand what SP is all about. Please don't take it down. We all love reading SP. Personally that is one of my fav fanfics. I would love if you could continue writing SP for all the ardent readers and lovers. Hope you get your inspiration to write more and entertain us.
    Your ardent fan
    Nivi

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  24. Hey Tina, firstly, wishing for a lot of strength and positivity for you to deal with what you have been facing in your personal life.
    Next I would like to say that I love S.P. I've been reading and commenting on S.P since the time I discovered your blog. The story had I guess maybe reached the 3rd thread by then, don't really remember clearly. But off late, I haven't commented on a couple of chapters which were posted because I was busy with exams and stuff( so while it right after this). Today when I checked your blog, this note made me upset. As other ardent readers and fans, even I would like to request you to please continue with your story and not pay any heed to the negative comments(obviously this is also not any kind of pressure, this is stemming from the fact the I really love reading and re-reading your work and wouldn't want to harm your mental peace by coaxing you for anything :)). I'm sure if you count the comments the positive ones definitely far outnumber the negative ones. We all have a choice and we can read and write what we want to as long as it it not causing anyone else any kind of harm. People not liking a particular story, can choose not to read it further. We all might have not liked certain concepts or stories and we choose to not read them. It's as simple as that.
    So All The Very Best. May God Bless You. And last but not the least, Happy Diwali in advance :))
    Prachi
    (IF name- pra_s.96)

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  25. Dearest Tina

    Don't let the haters, bashers n losers who have nothing better to do than condemn ur writing put u down. U have plenty of readers who love ur fabulous works & who love u. IPPKND was & is special. We fell deeply in love with the characters & I'm sure many of us felt it could have been better. Now we have fantastic writers like u who gives us different n marvelous ffs with the characters we so love. U give us tears, laughter, love, romance, passion n happy endings. SP is beautiful n unique, please dn't take it down. Take care n please continue with ur awesome work.

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  26. Waiting for your SP update but what I got was quite a shock to me. There are other stories too that are posted on blogs that have more of domestic violence too but at the same time and end of the day everyone reads the story because mostly the stories sometimes depicts the real life situations and here also this story somewhere depicts the real life situation that we never come across or knew of it.
    Please do not take this story down as it is we have reached the finale of it. I have always loved SP and would continue to read too. This love between Arnav and Khushi is very powerful, nothing absolutely nothing can wipe out that.
    Many of your loyal readers would like to read this again and again, please pretty please don't take this down.

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  27. I love your stories Tina. Negativity will always be a part of such a controversial story. But, these stories are so much worth it. Please keep them and continuing writing them because these stories reflect the love, respect, and dedication you feel towards Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon and also, your fans. And, as your huge fan, I can guarantee it. Please keep them up.

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  28. Hey Tina
    You are an amazing writer and it takes a lot to do this and most of us love your writing.... thats the reason we all wait for the updates...but for each and every minute thing there will be both positive and negative...ignore the negative and see the positive that most of us love your writing and SP so much.... come on baby you much batter things to do than explaining to the people who are not worth... please don’t stop writing For all of us are your Ipkfamily... we all are waiting for the next update...
    Luv and hugs

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  29. Hey buddy..thanx much for giving in to this even thou u have much more in ur lyf to do.i get that u are here for ur readers and for ur love for everything related to IPK and for urslf...don’t ever pay heed to any of the ppl out there who can’t handle when things go outta what they expect..it’s a fictional story and it shud be like the way one imagines..and it’s going super...there ll be few ups and downs..everything can’t be rosy..just chill..and yeah as a reader..I request u to not take SP down..but at the end I ll always respect ur decision..cheers

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